Reluctantly yours

Several years ago when I started blogging, I wasn’t quite sure why I was the reluctant dietitian but I was.  I felt it.  I love food.  I love helping people.  Health is important to me, so this path just felt like it fit when I was in school.  And, to be honest, I got an A in my first nutrition class.  But the more I learned the more I riled against it.  Nutrition takes the magic out of food.  Out of bodies.  You mean certain nutrients get absorbed in certain places? We’re going to spend the whole day baking cookies just so we can learn the effects of cook time, temperature, sugar, eggs, certain types of flour on the outcome? So I came out of school and took the first job I was offered.  Selling lettuce, nothing remotely related to nutrition.  And then I started talking to people about nutrition because that’s what happens when you have a nutrition degree.  So I came back to it.  Slowly, reluctantly.  It took me almost 5 years post bachelor’s degree to get into an internship then sit the exam to become a Registered Dietitian. Being a dietitian is hard.  Everyone knows something about food.  Your years of specialized training are often thrown aside for the quick and easy blurb by a certain tv doctor or anyone that has ever read a nutrition book or eaten.  And I am the first to say I don’t know it all.  I work as an acute care dietitian and in cardiac rehab this is what I know.  I don’t do sports nutrition (there’s a book on my nightstand I mean to read every time I run a half marathon). Or anything involving guts, gluten free or allergies. I'm moderately helpful when it comes to Diabetes. But as I stood in Target last night searching for a tortilla that didn’t have hydrogenated oils, it occurred to me that very few people in my age range are doing the same.  Being a dietitian makes grocery shopping take forever, on some subconscious level you’re almost always surveying what you’re eating, what others are eating, or what the food choices are.  I recently came across a book called Intuitive Eating By Evelyn Tribole MS, RD and Elyse Resch MS, RD and it resonated with me.  We are often called the food police as dietitians but I have to disagree. We are food lovers, food supports, promoters of GOOD food.  And not just food that is good for you but food that nourishes you.  That will make you feel better and be better.  If you are unfamiliar with the idea of intuitive eating it is the idea of reconnecting with what I’d like to call your inner toddler or your inner teenager. Do away with the voices that tell you you’re good or bad for eating one way or another.  These are moral judgments, you are not bad if you like to eat bacon, particularly maple bacon on Sunday at brunch with your girlfriends.  Eat what you want in the anounts you want. Think of food as part of your life experience.  Nourish your body and really listen to it.  How does it feel after you eat fast food or a bowl of fruit?  What are your energy levels like when you eat certain foods?  How does your skin feel? Your hair grow? Do you feel hungry?  Really hungry like the only things that will fix this is food hungry or are you bored, depressed, angry, or feeling social?  And on the other side of that how do you know that you are done eating?  What are your cues that you are full?  Take some time to get back in touch with you.  All too often I feel like our culture treats food as a burden. What I was initially afraid of becoming a dietitian was that I’d enjoy food less.  Growing up in an apple orchard filled with blackberry bushes and pear trees and friends in trees, I celebrated the seasons by coveting the newly budding apples, crawling all over the blackberry bushes for squishy finger staining berries. I knew where my food came from. It came from the top of that tree there the one we called the carousel or the tree by the road. Apple season was my favorite we'd wait all year for it to come. Store apples pale in comparison. So I work hard to eat locally and in season so good tastes like food. For a long time knowing what to eat and how felt like a burden, there was too much pressure to eat right all the time, to be the leading shining example, but food is just food and all I really want to do is help people feel better. So this year I’m trying to reconnect myself and my patients (and you) with the magic of food.